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01 - Change [19 Mar 2011|10:35pm] The only constant in life is that it is always changing, sure we have our routines and it seems like we keep reliving the same day over and over, but in reality life all around us is changing and that's just how things are suppose to be, there's no way around that one, true, simple fact. When I was in high school I had a routine, but that changed when I went to college where I had another routine, and that change when I got drafted, and so the big change machine continued to roll down hill until we find ourselves right here right now, my routine of goin to the bar, running things, and slowly feeling like I'm a machine, but that all changed the other day. I realized how much a phone call can really alter the course of your day, whether it be from someone you haven't heard from in a long time or someone you were dreading to talk to and really just wanted to avoid contact with them all together, when that telephone rings you really just don't know how that call is going to wind up changing your life. The reason I bring this up is because for most of the day I was going about my Saturday routine, checking stocks from the night before, making sure everything is set up for the nights events when I heard the phone ring from behind the bar, our lead bartender picked it up and then called out for me, saying it was an important call. Walking towards the bar I picked up, spoke my name and listened to a voice from my past that I never thought that I would ever hear again, a part of me wasn't sure that I wanted to talk to her, but from the way she sounded, I knew that this wasn't a call that I should pass up. Transferring the call to my office, I sat down and we talked a little bit, how are you, how are things, what've you been up to all these years, and I could tell that there was something on her mind, something that she needed to say. It took all of about five minutes before she brought up the reason why she called, and I honestly felt like my world was being dropped, I felt weightless, but there was a pit in my stomach that I just couldn't do away with. Back in high school we dated for about two years off and on, I was a junior and she was a freshman when we met, she seemed older, she seemed wiser, she was beautiful and amazing and I honestly felt like we could have our relationship work for the long hall. When it was clear that I was going to Minnesota for college, we knew that our relationship wasn't going to last, we were both headed in completely different directions, but as I mentioned earlier, life is change, and sometimes we have to change even if we don't want to. We enjoyed the rest of my senior year, and when I was gonna go to college, I found out that her family was goin to be moving to Texas, we decided to just move on with our lives, not to look back, but when she left she left with a secret, a secret she kept for the last sixteen years, a secret she decided to tell me because apparently it was time to know a little bit about her past and how it would effect my future. The secret that she was keeping from me, her life was changed when she moved to Texas and more than just going to a new town and making new friends. What she didn't tell me when she left was that she was pregnant, I was the father, and that I now have a sixteen year old running around someplace in America. She didn't have a lot of information unfortunately, originally she wanted to have an abortion, not talk about it, since they were moving she could just move on with her new life and not a soul in their new town would have to know it ever happened, but her father put his foot down, saying that she wouldn't do such a thing. Her father talked her into carrying the child to full term, he demanded that she keep the child and raise him, but her mother and her were able to talk him into doing something that would not only spare her life, but give the child a better opportunity for having a good life, and not a teenage mother who wouldn't quite know what to do. She had found a couple that was unable to have children of their own, she doesn't know them very well, and she really didn't have a lot of information about them, only that they were a husband and wife and they had something to do with a church down in Texas, though that was years ago and they weren't in Texas any longer. It was a closed adoption, she didn't want to know about the child or how it was doing after the papers were signed and the child was born, he was to go with his family and that would be the end of it, and for sixteen years, it was. Apparently a few months ago the parents had called her, told her that their son was asking questions about his birth parents, who they were, what they were doing, why they didn't raise him, apparently he just wanted to have his questions answered, he didn't want new parents. The reason she was telling me after all these years is that I'm listed as the boys biological father, and that maybe one day someone might be coming to my door, claiming to be my son, and it just might be true. All of this information has taken me off my guard and I still am a little rocked about the news, but it has gotten me thinking. I was never really a family man, relationship kinda guy after college and when I was in the pros, but over the last two or three years I've calmed down and I've given it some thought and yeah, I'd like to start a family some day, have kids, have a nice house, all of that, but it's possible that part of that has already happened. I'm still trying to wrap my mind around it, and being a father now....I want to know where he is, who he is, just as badly as he wants to know us....I wish I could find him. 29 comments|post comment

[12 Feb 2011|08:48pm] text - voicemail - e-mail 138 comments|post comment

[12 Feb 2011|04:52pm] Basic Info Name: Linus Charles Blake Nicknames: Blanket Bithdate: December 26th, 1976 Age: 34 Profession: Bar Owner, former NHL Player Marital Status: Single Sexual Orientation: Heterosexual Birthplace: Big Sky, MT Parents: Sarah and Elias Siblings: Lucy Blake (younger) Random Info Car: 1968 Dodge Charger Pets: none Hobbies: working on cars, drinking, skating History Big Sky, Montana is known for quite a few things, and though his career was short lived, Linus Blake was one of those things. Sarah and Elias Blake were born and raised in Big Sky, it wasn't a town that they had ever thought about leaving, they were thrilled and enjoyed the small town feel that they had about their life. Elias had dedicated his life to public service, having joined the Sheriffs department as a deputy when he was fresh out of high school, and Sarah had decided that she wanted to try her hand at selling real estate, and she found that she was very good at it. Life for the couple was more than they could ever have hoped for it to be, they loved their small town life and the fact that it was rare that they ever had to lock their doors in fear of what their neighbors might think or do. Their lives only got better when Sarah found out that she was pregnant, they were going to have a son, and thanks to their mutual love of the funny pages in the Sunday paper, they had decided that they were going to name their first born son Linus. On December 26th, Sarah and Elias received a late Christmas present, their son Linus was born healthy and happy, and they knew from that moment forward that Linus was due for great things. His parents expectations were high, but when Linus was young he was able to meet and exceed his parents expectations of him, he was an adventurous boy but he never really stepped too far out of his parents range, or at least when he was really young he was that way. Eventually Linus liked to go exploring, and he had a tendency to get into trouble with a few of the other neighborhood boys, but it was never anything incredibly serious that they would be doing, just small things that annoyed the neighborhood, but as always in a small town atmosphere, it was always a 'Boys will be boys' attitude. Linus kept very close with his friends through out the years, and as they got older he started to become a bit of the ring leader of the group, and his two best friends that he spent his time with would wind up on the same team as he was when they played hockey. Despite his town not being very sports oriented, Linus loved to play peewee hockey, and as he got older he started to get more recognition for his skills on the ice, so much so that when he got to high school, he was the captain of the varsity squad and wound up becoming an All-American and accepted a scholarship to the University of Minnesota. At this time he was dating a girl, she was two years younger than he was, but they were still inseparable, he thanked one of his best friends, because this was his sister. When it came time for him to graduate from high school, they ended up calling it quits, because she was about to move away and he was about to go to college, they made a clean break. What he did not know was that at that time she was pregnant, and when she left, she took that secret with her. When Linus arrived in Minnesota, no one knew him, all that was really known around campus was that he was from a small town and he was brought in to play hockey for the school, this was a chance for Linus to really show who he was, to show that this was where he belonged. It wasn't too long into his freshman year that Linus was starting to make a name for himself, not just as a hockey player, but as a real big man on campus sort of guy. Girls liked him, guys wanted to hang out with him, and while he never officially joined a fraternity, he was a defacto member of every frat on campus. It got to the point where he never really wanted to go back to Montana, he didn't miss the small town feel, he loved the fact that he was known by anyone and everyone, and that he was also starting to get a name for himself in the NCAA. It took four years, but finally the Minnesota Golden Gophers won the National Championship in hockey, and that made Linus quite a hot commodity, or at least that's what he thought. He graduated from the University of Minnesota with his BA in Business Management, but that wasn't what he had in mind, he wanted to play hockey for the rest of his life, and so he decided to enter the NHL Draft, to take his chances and see what would happen. While some people thought he would go in the first round, it seemed that Linus' stock started to drop, and it wasn't until late in the second round of drafting that he was picked up by a team he didn't think he was even on their radar. With a grin that could light up the city he was heading to, Linus was drafted by the New York Rangers. Linus entered the NHL with high hopes and expectations, he spent ten years playing hockey professionally, he wound up making the All-Star squad twice, and played with such great names like Mark Messier, Jaramier Jagr, and the Great One, Wayne Gretzky. Towards the end of his career Linus started to suffer from knee problems, he wound up being traded away from the Rangers to the Boston Bruins and than he wound up ending his career with the Tampa Bay Lightning, playing part of his time there and then part of his time with the Norfolk Admirals in the AAA League. After he blew out his right knee again, Linus officially retired from professional hockey, he knew it was time, and while he never got a chance to lift Lord Stanley's Cup, he enjoyed his time in the league and he was always going to treasure his career. Despite liking Florida and Virginia, Linus didn't know what to do after he was done playing hockey, so with a heavy heart he decided to do the one thing he knew he could do, the one place where he would always be welcome, and while he hadn't been back to Montana in a long, long time, he moved back to Big Sky in hopes that his family would embrace him. He was fortunate that they had. He bought a house and now owns his own bar in Big Sky, he was done with his hockey career, he was now glad to have a bit of a quiet life. While he doesn't know it yet, his life will soon change. 4 comments|post comment

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